This past Saturday, I met up with some new running friends for an "unofficial" NoBo group workout along Durand Eastman park. The forecast called for rain, however the beautiful sun shined bright over the lake as I pulled into my parking spot. It was so inviting and brought me comfort as I prepared for the three miles that were coming next.
I look at the sun so differently these days. Maybe it's because I longed all winter for it to show it's face and warmth during NoBo workouts. If the sun is out, I feel guilty if I'm unable to run and desire to get out there ASAP.
The sun changes my plans, shapes my thoughts and touches my inner soul. When the sun is out during a run it's like there is nowhere else I was meant to be.
I've always loved being outside, but I feel a deeper connection now that I've started to run. I can't hide if the sun is out and it's an invitation to let go of all my insecurities. Inside and out. People I pass can see everything I used to try to cover. My thighs, my jiggly arms and backside.
They are all exposed. Everything is.
My thoughts are not excluded either. They linger all around deep inside my mind while I run and I'm given a chance to sort them out. Sometimes if they are sad or stressful they escape my soul in the form of tears. Again, I'm exposed, but it's okay. The release is a soothing experience. Wiping them away, along with the beads of sweat is such a powerful feeling. They're gone!
If I think about something happy or things that have recently happened that have brought me joy, it's like I get to re-live them again. These thoughts seem to explode and create an even more meaningful experience as I run. The sun captures it all.
Now, sometimes it's not this deep connection. Sometimes I'm just waiting for the end where I can rejoice about the fact that "I JUST DID THAT". And that's okay too. It's just so much nicer if the sun is out!
Yesterday as I pulled into the JCC, the plan was to lift some weights at Body Pump. However, the sun was out and calling my name. I took that sign as an opportunity to run outside along the property while my son was at sitter service. Its been something I have thought about doing for a while and was so happy I took advantage of that chance. I can't wait to do it again!
2.5 miles, alone with my thoughts in the sun and it was so peaceful!
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