The Power of Music

It's crazy how music can send you to so many places and bring back memories either recent or from years past.  I'm sure you've experienced it many times.  A song can catch me off guard, regardless of where I am or what I'm doing and cause the biggest smile or tears to come across my face.  I love it and hate it all at the same time.

Today I was cleaning the kitchen and had Pandora on with my new favorite station created from the Broadway Musical 'Once'. I've only listened to that station a few times, and have really connected with some of the songs and artists that station plays.  I highly recommend it!

Well, the last time it was playing on my airwaves was on Saturday when I was driving  home from Mendon Ponds Park. That  was the first time I heard an artist, new to me, who  was singing a cover of 'With or Without you'  by U2.  This song captivated me.  The acoustic guitar and voices that are in this version hit me and immediately made me feel calm.  At that moment when it was playing in the car, I was driving out of Mendon Ponds Park.  The sun was high over the Sunflower field, creating such a beautiful picture.  I wish I had my {good} camera! It was stunning.
Well today, when I was in my kitchen and this song came on again, I was able to think about that perfect morning.  It was such a great distraction from the dishwasher that needed to be emptied and plied dishes in the sink that needed to be rinsed and loaded.  I was able to get lost in the song, continue the task at hand and reminisce about Saturday mornings' accomplishment.... where I ran the longest distance I ever had!

I remember feeling invincible.  It truly was the proudest I have ever been about myself.  7.5 miles.  Who knew I had it in me?  Who knew that on that cold February morning when I walked into Fleet Feet to "learn how to run" that 6 months later I'd be enduring the hills of Mendon Ponds Park... oh and actually RUN seven and a half miles? All that and more was flooding my mind Saturday morning. I knew that when I pulled in the driveway that moment was going to be over.  And I was perfectly content with that.  I had things to do (SHOWER) and people to see (Family Reunion Party) and I knew I was going to feel great inside the entire day!
The run itself had it's good parts and bad, but the group I was with was the BEST ever. I've become close to new runners who have an amazing energy! Pina was our fearless pacer and just kicked butt! Honestly, I see her get stronger after each run!  

I don't know what it is, but after I can physically see 4 miles on my watch, everything a head of me seems easier.  The first 3-4 miles, always seems boring and tough.  It's all a mental thing, but as soon as my watch reads something more than 4.0, I feel like a switch in my brain turns on and sends a signal to my body that it's "GAME TIME". Call it adrenaline or call it the drive to make this a "significant" run that means something.  As I explore longer distances and realize that I can do it, I become more excited to get it done.  Sure, the jitters the night before are still there, but the confidence the morning of is getting stronger!
What moves me today?  September 21st. In less than a month I'll be running the Marathon relay with some pretty inspiring people! I'm in 'training mode' until then and am pretty excited to see the end result!!  

Going the Distance

24 hours ago I was a nervous wreck. I I had butterflies in my stomach and I was so worried about the 6 mile No Boundaries workout at Mendon Ponds Park. I questioned if I had hydrated enough and worried that I wasn't prepared mentally and physically for this morning's challenge.

I woke up at 6:30 a.m., like every Saturday these past 6 months, determined that a running workout was going to happen. The next 1.5 hours flew and before long I was in my pace group fiddling with my watch to get satellites when Ellen yelled "Lets go 13's"... and we were off. 

Within 2 seconds, literally, we were faced with a pretty steep and incline. Within a minute, I was out of breath. I guess I felt okay since everyone else around me was in the same boat and felt the shock to the body too.

Long story short, there were highs and lows throughout the run, but bottom line...I felt stronger than last Saturday and am so proud about how far I have come. Next week I tackle 7.5 miles with a great group of runners. I'm excited for the challenge.... and will probably still have those same butterflies the night before. And I'm okay with that. 

What an incredible journey this has been!

Who just ran 5 miles?

...... THIS GIRL! 

What an incredible morning, spent together with my No Boundaries group. We were unified, all with the realizations that milestones were on the horizon, but work had to happen in order to taste that sweet flavor of SUCCESS! 

I have to say that I was extremely nervous.  The fact that I ran 5 miles this past May, once before, didn't ease any emotions.  I got up, dressed and made some breakfast as I waited for Pina to come greet me with her "It's game day attitude" hidden behind her smile.  
I couldn't find my watch, and I was letting that get to me.  I also was going to try "magic jelly beans" during this run to help aid with energy and nutrition. Two new things to tackle, but I had to keep my head in the game.

We got there, and when I saw all the others from our pace group, a sense of calmness came over.  If I was going to have to do this, they were going to have to do it as well.

3.2.1. GOOOOO.  We left the beautiful scenery of Durand Park and headed for the streets and subdivisions.  After that we continued towards the O'Rourke bridge that gets you from Irondequoit to Greece.  I've crossed that COUNTLESS times via car over the past 30 years of my life and never once ever thought I'd run over it.  The view of the Lake, and all the new renovations this area has made helped block the horrible incline.  After that, we were at the 2.5 mile mark.  Right about then I popped the full bag of Pomegranate Jelly Belly brand of Nutrition/Energy beans. They tasted really great actually, which was a nice surprise.  Eating and Chewing them however, as I labored a bit with my breathing; was not something I appreciated.

So... did they work?  I don't know. Ha!! 
I couldn't tell if it was more in my mind, or if they actually improved the last half of my run.  I can tell that they did a number on my stomach... but can't be completely sure if my stomach just needed more water.  (Note to self, upgrade the amount of water I carry when running more than 4 miles).  

At one point we were told that we were at 3.75 miles and the Park was in the distance. It was the best news ever.  "I got this" I said to myself. "And soon you'll be home to tell you husband how awesome it was!"

When we got to our starting point, we were only at 4.7 miles.  Once getting over that mental block that we indeed had to run farther than we thought, it was smooth sailing.  Disappointing at first, but the fight I still had left to give shined as best as it could. We did it.  We ran passed others that had finished their goal and were now stretching. 

We did it... and we were together, start to finish!  These girls along with Pina, our fabulous pacer and friend gave this run our all.  

THAT's what moved me today!  And it felt great!  Dare I say SIX MILES is next week?  Holy cow... but it is.  So here's to a great week of strength training and homework runs. I put faith in No Boundaries time and again, so I shouldn't have anything to worry about!  Running CHANGES everything!

I Don't Want To RUN!

I woke up today completely against going for the "assigned" 4 mile run. Sure, the St.Lawrence River was outside my window. But I had a headache and just wanted to be lazy. I thought I could 'fly under the radar' in front of my family and just suppress the guilt inside UNTIL my husband uttered the words... "No run today?"

Those three horrible wonderful words were exactly what my body didn't want to hear and what my mind needed to. I was caught in a crossfire of emotions.

Why should I run today?
1. My fellow 13's were doing 4 miles today.
2. I had to cut my workout short yesterday due to bodily functions.
3. The forecast predicted showers the rest of the day (and tomorrow) and if I  wanted to take advantage of the beautiful sun, I needed to do it then!
4. GUILT

There were tons more and in order to just shut them off from circling throughout my brain, I knew I needed to start getting ready. "I don't want to run" I kept saying to myself.... which wasn't the best way to prep and start off the workout. I felt defeated even before I started. And I was the one to blame!

I managed to pull things together and as I headed out the door, I gave one last kiss my little Elijah James and even made him say "Have a good run Mommy" to me. I was banking on that being the last push to confirm to my body that THIS RUN IS HAPPENING!

His words hit me, even if they were forced, and I focused on them a lot during that 56 minute run. Today is his third birthday and part of the main reason I began to "learn to run" was because of my family. And today, FAMILY was the driving force that got me through.... beginning to end.

Happy Birthday Elijah! What moves me today? YOU... and the desire to spend countless birthdays with you and your sister.

I can't say that was the best run, nor was it pretty, but it was done.... and I'll take it as a win!

Shoreline 5K

37:14 with an average 12:01 per mile was my finishing result at this past weekend's Shoreline 5k at Hamlin Beach State Park. It felt amazing! My kids, husband, brother and his girlfriend created such a motivating cheering crowd. The support they gave, made me feel so special and determined to give it my all!

It was a beautiful morning. The race route was flat and the last mile was along side Lake Ontario. It was so pretty.

I felt confident about this race, especially since I pushed myself during last week's workouts. (Well, Pina did in all fairness!)  I was thrilled that my husband could see me start and finish since this was the first time we were not both competing on the same day.

It's still crazy for me to believe at times that I am still doing this. Like this is NOT a dream or some casual thing that I decided to do but then lost interest with.

I am still running. Each night before a homework run with Pina, I set the alarm for that scary 5:45 a.m. wake up reminder that confirms my "Runner" status. I never have the feeling of wanting to get out of bed... but I do.

Maybe it's because I know Pina is waiting for me at the end of my driveway. Maybe it's because I think that if I don't get out of bed, the running switch in my body will turn off forever. Maybe it's because the way my husband looks at me after I complete a run gives me so much more motivation, to one day, be at his level.

What moved me today? The feeling I had after the race on Saturday. I wanted to stay in bed and avoid the 3 mile workout this morning, but knew in order to feel what I felt on Saturday again, I had to put in the work TODAY!

I'm not sure who is reading these blog posts, but if you are, I sincerely encourage you to do something you thought you never could. Weather it's learning to run, create a healthier lifestyle or heck, knitting a beautiful quilt... Whatever it is, go and DO it! Proving to yourself that you can actually achieve it is so EMPOWERING!
I wish you the best. Oh, and thanks for reading, too!

22:32

On Wednesday, the NoBo Coaches "surprised" us with a Time Trial.  This was very much like what we did the first workout of the season to get placed  in our pace groups.  I'm not sure if it was a good surprise or not, but at that moment I really had no choice. I had so much on my mind, and even though I wasn't in the mood to run 2 miles as fast as I could, I welcomed the distractions in my brain to help hide the sweat and pain that was about to come my way.

Two miles, as if you were running a race with no talking.  I positioned myself in the back of the pack this time, so I wouldn't feel like I was in anyone's way as they passed by.  I was bummed that I didn't have my watch with me and really felt like I had no way to gauge my progress or pace.  It was a bit intimidating, but soon that feeling escaped my mind after a woman from the 13:00 pace group said "hi Divina" as she passed by.

"Hi Fawn.  I'm so happy to see you!" I exclaimed and instantly my mood had changed! AHA... that was my "watch"... my pace leader... my prize, I thought to myself!

Fawn and I have ran together during Wednesday workouts, and she was always a few steps ahead of me.  If I could keep up with her, then I knew I would be in good shape.  And that's what I did.  I stayed a little behind her, 16 seconds exactly.  I finished in 22:32 minutes, 1:13 FASTER than I did a month ago.  It didn't feel easier, but the feeling afterwards was so rewarding!  

Today's NoBo workout was 3 miles, just like yesterday's homework was.  3 miles at a 13:00 minute pace is going really well.  My breathing is pretty much in control the whole way, unless it's super hot out.  But even that's going pretty good too.  Slowly I can feel my body getting used to the heat with each run.

I feel like I'm transitioning again, which is truly an awesome experience.  I'm not scared of 3 miles, or the heat as much, OR for what is coming next.  I have a new record to beat at the next Time Trial and more goals to follow. I'm so ready for this!!! Bring it!

My Reward

Saturday morning's No Boundaries workout was brought to you by the most beautiful place I am able to call my second home of the summer
What moves me today? The St Lawrence River!

The 2-mile loop outside Lazy Acres was where I spent this morning after forcing my butt out of bed. I had every intention of doing it yesterday, but the excuses in my brain won.  "I'm tired & Friday's are my rest days" seemed fair enough to me to keep my body from moving.
Not today! All day yesterday I wish I had felt the satisfying feeling of "I ran today". I thought about it when I was on the boat and drinking my new favorite Bud Light strawberry margaritas. I thought about it as I eagerly grabbed the second helpings of macaroni salad. Even by breakfast, I felt guilty I didn't make it out for a run.

Today, I wanted to feel that I earned the right to indulge. I wanted to feel that inner satisfaction and joy I get from running. Right now, I feel great and so glad I got my butt in gear this morning! Four miles. In my favorite place. Done.

The first loop went by really fast. It was pretty crazy. The best part was the recovery. A slight down hill, cool breeze and the River, in all it's beauty, straight ahead. Simply stunning!

As I passed our cozy little cottage the first time, I could see my father in law sitting in the sun porch enjoying his cup of coffee. "That will be ME very soon. All I need is one more lap"... I thought to myself.

Coffee, the beautiful recovery scene and the fact that I promised Pina a picture of my watch time is what drove me through the next two miles. They seemed so much longer than the first two, but I knew the ending would be worth it.. AND... the rest of the day to follow.

So here, as I sit on this beautiful boat, with great family and friends, I feel a bit more satisfied. Knowing that the run this morning helped "ground" me for the day. It was the first time in a while I ran by myself, connected to my own thoughts. I needed that. It was great!

I love running here. And even though it was just my second time, I know there will be countless times in the future.
Heck, maybe in the near future I will add another lap, creating 6 miles as the goal. When I am ready to I do it, I can't think of a better place!

Lucky #13

Wow, has it been a crazy two weeks!! 

Summer has begun which means so have the beautiful warm days reaching into the 80's; mosquito's at dusk; cold drinks in your hand; camp fires and fireworks.... I LOVE IT!

The past two weeks in NoBo have been pretty great too!  I'll admit, my workouts suffered while I was in Pennsylvania last week.  And I was pretty nervous this past Wednesday at our group workout.  I went over to the Westside to run with my fellow 13's.  {Oh yeah... I'm officially in the 13:00 pace group!  Kinda exciting!!!}  

So, back to Wednesday.  Yep, the workout was pretty challenging... but it was the kick in the butt that I needed to have... and grateful it came early in the NoBo session.  HOMEWORK is important.  I had to learn it last session in 5K and hopefully I can stay focused now moving on.
This morning when I completed homework with Pina, 2.5 miles went by way faster and easier than 2.0 miles on Friday.  Crazy!  I don't understand it at times, but I know keeping up with the Homework and HYDRATION will be the 2 H's I will hold near to my heart these next two months ahead!
The heat and I have this love/hate relationship.  I love that Rochester is finally being rewarded from the disgusting winter we just had... but I'd like to 'call off the reward' for only just an hour as I put on my sneakers'.
Running in the morning has really helped.  Pina is still excited to meet me at the end of my driveway so we can hammer out a run by 7am!  I am so happy we've been able to get into a good routine! 

Saturday's workout at Mendon Ponds was pretty good.  We've now advanced to running 2.5 miles and walking 1/4 mile before and after.  I really like having PACE groups and a leader too.  It's that constant visual aspect of  controlling your speed without always looking down at your watch. 

Each pace leader has been upbeat and has had great stories to share during our run.  On Wednesday, Dawn talked about how we were running so we could eat cake.  On Saturday, Jessica's singing and her positive attitude helped us the entire way, even up the hard hills! An "uppertunity" she'd say!  And opportunity to become STRONGER as we suffered through 10 seconds of pain!

What moves me today? Pace leaders or Pacers... whatever the technical term is.
I consider these pace leaders as my "mini finish line".  Towards the end of the workout, they push me to catch up and stay parallel with them so we can finish together. Even if I have to sprint, (like I did today with Pina at our morning workout) I'm there next to them and I know I'll be done soon.
Happy Monday, Cheers to a great week!

You're not in 5K anymore

Last night was our first NoBo group workout with our pace group. The goal was to walk 1/2 mile. Run 2 miles.  Walk 1/2 mile. It was 70 something degrees, the sun was shining and there was a slight brezze.

These conditions were greatly appreciated during the steep inclines around the pretty residential homes near Cobbs Hill. And then there was the infamous hill up to the Reservoir. I have wanted to go to the hill workouts on Tuesday nights for a while now. And last night I sure got a preview!! YOWZERS!

This running workout was completely different. And the feeling of Change was staring me in the face.  "You're not in 5K training-land anymore, Divina!" New obstacles are on the horizon, and HILLS are on the list.

It's a whole new ballgame now.  I feel like I'm some freshmen graduate student who is starting her Sophomore year. I know how to run and now it's time to learn more tips and face new challenges!

What moves me today?  Currently, a 2004 Honda CRV as we start a family vacation camping in PA.

What really moves me? Running in a new place while completing 2.0 NoBo Homework. Heck, I havent ran in Pennsylvania yet, Let's give it a try!

NoBo 2.0, Here I GO!

No Boundaries 2.0 started this past weekend and there was excitement in the air! It was great seeing familiar faces and new friends that I had made last session.  I felt so different on Saturday compared to the feelings of fear and anxiousness I had when I began this journey on February 1st. Granted, it was because I never thought I would take on an adventure to learn how to run. And now I have the desire to see how far I can go!  I'm so excited to be part of this again!

The first thing we did was something called a time trial. They had us run two miles and recorded our time. This directly affects what pace group we will be placed in as we proceed with our group workouts. The one main rule while we're ran this was, NO TALKING!! The coaches and mentors wanted us to work hard so we could figure what our true pace time  in a race setting.
I really enjoyed it. It allowed me to become lost in my thoughts and in my own state of mind. I was able to think of the goals I have during No Boundaries this summer. I was excited when I finished and saw that my time was faster than my normal workouts have been. I guess I never realized how much energy talking uses. Crazy!  

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Today was day one of homework. And in true fashion, Pina was there.  I couldn't believe she agreed to meet me at my house at 6am to run 2 miles and walk before and afterwards. It really meant a lot to me. I know she's doing these workouts for herself too, but I was really touched that she came and for her support! It was a beautiful morning and it felt great to be able to start today this way!

Before we started to run, I asked Pina if we could continue the "no talking" rule while we ran. She didn't mind at all, and it was a hit! At the end of the workout, the numbers on our watch said it all!

It was such a cool feeling, running in silence next to someone that has helped me grow so much. Up until now we would have conversations to pass the time to get us to our next mile.  But today was different.  We were both recognizing how much we've gained, and our silent running bodies did the work while we could just reflect.  We've stepped up to a new level and now, at least for me, I'm starting fresh with this new challenge.  No Boundaries, 2.0!

Today, I was able to show Pina what I do while I'm on my own. My breathing was under control the entire time and I was happy I could do that. Normally while I'm talking to her and running I strain to maintain it at times. We were about 2 minutes per mile faster than we have ever been when we finished. We were in the groove and it felt awesome!

What moves me today? THIS WORKOUT.  I learned so much and felt so comfortable within my new "running self".  I'm excited for more workouts where I focus less on talking and more about what is happening inside.

Happy Monday!

5 MILES.. Whoa Baby!

Today I did something I NEVER thought I'd ever be able to... I ran 5 miles.  It's crazy to think about it, really, and I'm just so amazed at how running is NOT something I hate anymore.  I actually felt like I was in control the entire time. "I got this".  And I did.. I really had it!

After about a mile and a half I got into the "groove" as Pina explained.  A "groove" that was comfortable allowing my mind to realize that I could do the same motion for as long as I needed to... and not worry about a thing.  At times I needed to check in with my breathing, but I know that will never go away, and I'm okay with that!

I am so excited to be able to have gone this far.  I got to where I wanted to go during the break between No Boundaries Spring and No Boundaries Summer.  My next adventure starts up next week, and I can't wait for that new journey to begin.

I welcome this milestone with a new challenge.  The challenge of being held accountable with the number on the scale.  In the past, my weight loss worked when I weighed myself in front of somebody. Each week, no excuses.  I brought my scale to Paychex when I worked there, and stepped on it in front of my best friend every Wednesday morning before we got our coffee.  Today, I did the same thing... instead I brought the scale to our running location and gracefully stepped on it in front of Pina. {heck, if she could push me to run 5 miles, and all the training that lead up to it... I think she could push me to shed a few pounds as well... right?}

So, here's to a new beginning.  Or, should I say a new chapter to start!  I had written before about that finish line, and when I crossed it after my first 5K race.  The feelings of excitement, fear and determination as I tackled what was next!  I need to tap back into those emotions that will help me push through the times I want to give up.

What moves me today?  The excitement of summer, and all the amazing numbers that will come my way.. in all areas of life.  They will take work to achieve, but I'm ready!

4.5 Miles

It was another beautiful morning, and the plan was to run 4.5 miles so I could stay on track with my schedule.  Last week was a tough week, and I found myself more occupied with housework, a purple cast on my daughter's left arm, busy evenings and a crazy calendar schedule. I was bummed I wasn't able to cross train at the gym, for I really missed my Pilates classes! I'm counting down the hours till Tuesday morning where I can reconnect with my pretty green Pilates mat, along with my core, abs, legs...... you get the drift!

Today I broke a record as I slowly increase my distance. 
4.5 miles in an hour and two minutes. Whoo hoo!

It was a great run with a nice friend.  We had a great conversation and it just carried us away as we took in the beautiful canal.  I really can't believe how the time flew.

What moves me today? The excitement to increase my distance to a solid 5 miles.  I know this will take sticking to the training I have for the next two weeks so I can reach that goal...and I'm all IN!

Cheers to a great week ahead!

Corporate Challenge

Last night was the Corporate Challenge. It's one of the biggest races that Rochester has and this year about 11,000 runners and walkers participated.  It was really cool seeing all of the local and national businesses there with their colorful race shirts.

I was really lucky to represent SPX, my husband's company in the race.  It was a beautiful night, perfect for running.  Not too hot, and cloudy.  Plus, the kids were home with Grandma and Grandpa, giving my husband and I some time to just be together, before and after the race.

Another awesome part of the evening was that Pina was there too. She's amazing and I'm so happy that I was able to run the entire race with her.

How as the race?  IT WAS TOUGH.  It was 3.5 miles long and I felt real confident leading up to it.  "I just ran 4 miles on Saturday and it was a great time.  3.5, I got this!!"

Well, that was not really the case. Since 11,000 other runners were there, squeezed into a small space outside RIT's campus...when it was time to start, PACE was thrown out the window.  I basically just ran, so I wouldn't get run over.  Forget starting slow at a nice speed.  At one point I looked at my watch and saw we were running at a 10:15 mile pace, and I panicked.  I wasn't even at the half mile point and already my nerves got the best of me.  Damn Watch!  I immediately started the mental battle in my head. At that point we approached an incline and I had that to overcome.

By the time we got to the 1st Mile check point, I hated life.  I hated that I was so overwhelmed with emotion, anxiety and that my breathing was all over the place.  Pina knew this, and coached me through it... however I just couldn't get it under control.  She is the ultimate role model when it comes to breathing, and I owe her so much for that!!!

"What happens after the 2nd Mile" ...Pina asked as it was in the horizon.  "We become MAGICAL", I exclaimed.  I needed that, even if I didn't believe my own words.

It was a struggle the entire way for me.  "Magical" never showed up, even when the crowds of runners diminished and I was in a comfortable space.  There were walkers to pass and faster runners still whipping by me. I couldn't stop looking down at my wrist to check my pace or distance.  Damn Watch.  I felt confused at times, and disconnected with my own comfortable running body that I've grown into. I blame that stupid first mile that although was a personal best, started me off on the wrong foot.  I blame my watch and my brain for creating all these negative thoughts that distracted me from all the positives that were going on right there in front of me!  Enough with all the doom and gloom...

Let's go there... the amazing positive moments of the race:

~ It was the first time I saw and heard my husband cheer for me as I approached the finish line.  Honestly, that's what I thought about as I huffed and puffed the whole way through.

~ My average pace was an incredible 12:53 min/mile. SO CRAZY!

~ I learned a valuable lesson, and overcame the challenge by running the entire time, even when I just wanted to stop!  I was put into a situation and the training I've done so far helped me, which I'm just grateful for!!

~ Lastly, but certainly not least, I was able to be there with such a positive person in my life, who pushed me to the end.  She's AMAZING, and I'm just so lucky for everything she's shown me.  The encouragement she's gives at just the right point when I'm about to breakdown out weighs anything I've ever experienced. The fact that she kept putting me first, when I told her to run ahead, makes me hold back tears.  For this is what true compassion and friendship is all about.  "Learning to RUN" didn't just give me the ability to run!

No Boundaries starts in 15 days, and I'm so much farther than where I was when it ended a month ago. Pina and I both are!!  I'm so proud of her.

I can't wait to gain more training and experience, to ultimately give back as a future mentor.  I have some big shoes to mimic, and I can't wait for that opportunity!

River Runner

Oh, the River. Or should I say the Islands. I could even say Cape Vincent, Lazy Acres or Millens Bay. All mean the same thing. It's the place we dread leaving on Labor Day, the place we dream about on cold winter days, and the place we can't wait to start each summer at.

My mother-in-law and father-in-law have been sharing this special place with us for 8 years. We are so lucky to have this getaway place to enjoy boat rides, family and fun! I love the memories my kids have been able to make and it warms my heart knowing they have so many years ahead to create many more.

We are here to celebrate Memorial Day as well as our first trip up, down, over... whatever direction it really is. It's the start of our summer however we look at it!..And, its pretty exciting!

Today I woke up with the plan to run 4 miles. The route I was going to take is a route my mother in law and I always walk. We've spent many hours walking this two mile loop... talking, pushing the kids in strollers, and enjoying the view. When I woke up today, I was pretty excited to be able to RUN it for the first time!

If you would have asked me last year, if I had ever dream about running this loop, let alone twice, I would have laughed so hard. I thought about that during today's trek.

Ready.  Set.  Run.

It was really foggy this morning. I was happy that I had my reflector strap so it could provide some sort of protection during the gloom and mist that filled the air.  This was a new condition for me to run in. Immediately there was a film of moisture all over my body. I wasn't hot nor cold. It was kind of weird but added to my adventure.

The fog made the long road ahead of me eerie and mystical in a way. I was able to only see a few feet in front of me. Mailboxes we're hidden until the few seconds before I passed them. I paid close attention to the sound of the birds and trucks and cars along the main road. Sometimes it was a bit intimidating when I couldn't see the vehicles passing and only able to hear them.

When I approached the hill that I ultimately had to do twice for the first time around, I tapped in to one of my favorite Mentors words of advice. "Small steps. Don't rush". After that was over, I had a small gradual incline for a little ways and then it turned flat. After the first complete loop I was immediately more motivated and assured myself I could do it again.

Around mile 3, I passed another runner. She looked younger, was slimmer and had a very warm smile. We said "Good Morning" and went on our way. At that moment, a smile came across my face. I thought... "Hey, I'm just like her. A runner!!"

For years I have seen so many people run along that road while I walked past them. That small interaction with a fellow runner, where it may seem so insignificant to some, made me again remember that I too am just like her! I don't know when it will become easier to realize that.

When I was close to my finish, I ended up seeing that same girl again. She was at that point walking, and I had less than a quarter mile to go. We smiled at each other and I took that as if we both were saying "Great job!" I know, I know.. that's corny.

When I heard that last and final beep to alert me my run was done, I couldn't believe my eyes at my lap time.  My last mile was the fastest mile I ever ran. 12:16. Not only that, I shave off  a few minutes  from last week's 4 mile run.

What an amazing morning, in one of my favorite places, doing something I'm becoming to love. I'm looking forward to doing it again tomorrow. Now, all I have to do is coordinate my morning run with my husband's so we can be with the kids..

4 Miles Down

The thing I love most about running is that the experience can be completely different based on what you're looking to achieve.  
For example, if you want to run alone and have the chance to connect with your inner self, you can.  If you want company, you can make plans to run with someone.  If you want to escape what life is throwing you in that given moment, here's your chance.  If you want to run faster or the farthest you ever have, YOU can set that goal! The scenarios are endless!

For me, it's something I must do.  If I tell myself  "we're doing this and here's why..."  it's more likely to happen!  Having a schedule is really helping me stay focused until NoBo 2.0 starts!! 

You can set your mind on what YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE and then create the environment to make it happen!  

Today, I wanted to run 4 miles, and I knew I didn't want to do it alone! 
I'm grateful for joining No Boundaries not only because it's given me the gift of running... but it's also introduced me to a great community of fellow runners.  FOUR miles today seemed easy to accomplish because friends were there to enjoy it with.  Did I need them there for a sense of security?  I think so.  Did I want them there to celebrate afterwards at our finish?  Absolutely!   

What moves me today?  Friends.

Since I've begun running, I've been able to connect with new friends. It's amazing to share similar goals by doing the same thing, at the same time.  They could be a complete stranger who is running the same pace at a organized race, or someone close to you.  You may all be at different places, but you can experiencewhat you want to gain during that single run, together.  And, it makes the finish more exciting when you can celebrate their achievements along with yours!

3.5 and still ALIVE

What a picture perfect morning. I woke up to the sound of birds chirping and a slight breeze through the window. I'm so happy that Rochester is finally able to celebrate spring!

3.5 miles couldn't have been planned on a better day. I was a bit nervous, but confident. I told myself that if I wore my blue NoBo 'Running Changes Everything' shirt, I could do anything! After the 5K race two weeks ago, I look at this shirt as my Superman cape. It's all a mental thing, but it works.

I set off to the industrial park behind my neighborhood with my watch and water. Even though the sun was out, and I was excited to run farther than I ever have, I hated the beginning of the run. I wasn't fond of the middle, either. By 2.5 miles, my mood had changed and my body welcomed a sudden burst of energy.

"Oh hi, Adrenaline.  Nice of you to finally show up. Perfect timing!"

For the next 4 minutes after I felt like I could conquer anything! My breathing was spot on and my legs were so in the moment. I even looked at my watch and noticed my pace was slightly faster. Only by 4 seconds faster, but hey!

Around the industrial park loop, I faced one side with wind and one side with direct Sun. I hated the wind while I ran through it, but so wished it was there when I was in complete sun. It was a battle, but I was able to talk my way through it. In order to log 3.5 miles I needed to complete 3 loops around, factoring in the distance to and from the house. The first loop was the hardest, and once I knew I could do it, the next two didn't seem as bad.

When I got home, I celebrated this 3.5 milestone with a long deserving stretch and walked in my front door proud! It was great morning run and I'm feeling ready for whatever today will bring... (after a shower of course!)

What moves me today? The feeling of wanting to do it again!

Pressing Rewind

I wonder what it would be like if I had the chance to sit and watch myself, my life, over the past five months.  I wonder if there would have been a key moment when I noticed a drastic change.  Where I woke up one day and suddenly I was different.

Sure, I cut my hair a little shorter, dyed it darker, but that's not what I'm getting at. 

Yes, I started a running program in February and my schedule changed.  Yes, I started to refrain myself from that Friday night glass of wine (or two) so I could peel my body (a productive body) out of bed Saturday morning by 7:00am  (if not sooner).  Yes, I drudged through successful and sometimes unsuccessful 5K homework sessions in the SNOW and COLD. I understand that through all those monotonous activities, something was brewing.  Something I didn't realize nor expect.  If I could sit next to that same person who was at 5K NoBo Orientation in February, I don't think I'd recognize her. Maybe from the outside, sure... but not on the inside.

I certainly feel different today and I am making choices I NEVER thought I would. But when did it happen? 

I woke up today excited to run in the sun (again) and it made me feel happy the whole day through. It was like I wanted to wear a pin that said "I ran today" so everyone knew it, and maybe they'd go out and run and feel the same way too.  Heck, maybe I'm on to something and if given the chance to be a NoBo mentor I can incorporate an "I ran today" pin to the participants.  That could be cool... right?  I could ask them "did you wear your pin proud, today?" to encourage them to do their homework!

SEE!  This is what I'm talking about.  A full on tangent, inside a blog post about something so random, so far from anything I used to be or think about. 

I'm different, but I'm so happy.  I think I feel more self conscious about how excited I am after a run rather than how I run now.  I just want to rejoice after a workout and tell everyone, even though I know I will get the crazy looks from people. I'm pretty sure It's not the "ever so talked about runner's high", but more of a sense of pride and accomplishment.  I feel like I have to reiterate the fact that I'm not looking for "congratulations" or that I'm trying to rub it in to anyone who make take offense.  It' just pure and innocent happiness I want to share with anyone who wants to feel the same thing!
And, don't get me wrong.  It's not like I was unhappy before.  It's just that running has given me so much that I NEVER expected in such a short amount of time.  It's given me something I never knew I wanted!  I don't know how to describe it, and maybe that's why I wish I could go back to see that turning point.

But, is it really that important?  

NO, I guess not.  All that is important is that it's happening... even without the rewind button!

Running with the Sun

This past Saturday, I met up with some new running friends for an "unofficial" NoBo group workout along Durand Eastman park. The forecast called for rain, however the beautiful sun shined bright over the lake as I pulled into my parking spot. It was so inviting and brought me comfort as I prepared for the three miles that were coming next.

I look at the sun so differently these days. Maybe it's because I longed all winter for it to show it's face and warmth during NoBo workouts. If the sun is out, I feel guilty if I'm unable to run and desire to get out there ASAP.

The sun changes my plans, shapes my thoughts and touches my inner soul. When the sun is out during a run it's like there is nowhere else I was meant to be.


I've always loved being outside, but I feel a deeper connection now that I've started to run. I can't hide if the sun is out and it's an invitation to let go of all my insecurities. Inside and out. People I pass can see everything I used to try to cover. My thighs, my jiggly arms and backside.

They are all exposed. Everything is.

My thoughts are not excluded either. They linger all around deep inside my mind while I run and I'm given a chance to sort them out. Sometimes if they are sad or stressful they escape my soul in the form of tears.  Again, I'm exposed, but it's okay. The release is a soothing experience.  Wiping them away, along with the beads of sweat is such a powerful feeling.  They're gone!  

If I think about something happy or things that have recently happened that have brought me joy, it's like I get to re-live them again. These thoughts seem to explode and create an even more meaningful experience as I run.  The sun captures it all.

Now, sometimes it's not this deep connection.  Sometimes I'm just waiting for the end where I can rejoice about the fact that "I JUST DID THAT".  And that's okay too.  It's just so much nicer if the sun is out!

Yesterday as I pulled into the JCC, the plan was to lift some weights at Body Pump. However, the sun was out and calling my name. I took that sign as an opportunity to run outside along the property while my son was at sitter service. Its been something I have thought about doing for a while and was so happy I took advantage of that chance. I can't wait to do it again!

2.5 miles, alone with my thoughts in the sun and it was so peaceful!

Runners Runners EVERYWHERE

So, today was my daughter's preschool field trip to the Seneca Park Zoo. Luckily the rain held off and the kids all had a great time.  I got to see some of the moms and dads that I have grown to know over the past two years. Some even greeted me with a hug and congratulations for completing the Flower City Challenge race on Sunday. It was so nice and really unexpected. Some even commented on the picture from facebook and asked me about it. I still fought back tears as I was able to tell my story and reiterateHOW AWESOME NO BOUNDARIES AND FLEET FEET TRULY IS!

Well after lunch it was play time.  I'm standing at the playground, trying to keep and eye on both kids as 50 children of all ages charge the only slide in the park.  Out of nowhere, this woman approached me and said "Awesome job on your race this past weekend".  I took off my sunglasses, said "Thank You" and tried to figure out how the heck she knew I ran on Sunday. Did she hear others say congratulations to me?  Should I know her?  Was I just blanking out because I was focused on my son jumping off the tunnel platform?? I was so confused.

It was those first few awkward seconds of trying not to be rude, while still being engaged in the conversation (especially since she was throwing me all these compliments).  How the heck did she know me?  Was she another fellow NoBo'er?

After a few more seconds of shutting my brain off to the 10 questions I was asking, I started to listen to her go on and on about No Boundaries and how it changed her life, too! 

She told me how she saw my picture on the Fleet Feet Facebook page, saw my name and that it sounded familiar.  She then realized that I was the registrar for her daughter's preschool and when she saw me standing on the playground she needed to come and say "hi".  (Aha, that's how she knows me, she's a fellow parent, andrunner!) 

She went on about how last winter she did the 5K program, then stayed on for 2.0, 3.0 and then felt stuck about what to do next. She feared that if she stopped a running program, she'd lose everything she worked so hard to gain.  (JUST LIKE THE WAY I FEEL RIGHT NOW).  She told herself that the HFM program had to be next on her list and signed up.  Sunday she completed her first half marathon! I was so proud of her, and yet I just met her two minutes ago.

By the end of the conversation I hugged her, congratulated her on her success and realized that I could be just like that in a year. ONE YEAR, CRAZY! I was truly touched that she took the time to come talk to me.  We exchanged numbers and now I have yet another person to go run with.  An instant friend!  How cool!

There are so many inspiring stories that unfold in front of you when you least expect it... AND RUNNERS for that fact.  They are EVERYWHERE!  It's crazy to think that I'm part of this whole new world now, too!  I love it, and would not change a thing!!! What a happy day!!

SIX WEEKS

So, No Boundaries is over with until June 14th.  That's when the summer session starts and I plan to move into the 2.0 class.  I'm a bit nervous, because that is about SIX weeks away, and then some! SIX WEEKS, not cool at all.  What am I supposed to do until then?

I'm so afraid I'll loose what took me so hard to gain over the last 12 weeks.  I need a schedule.  I need a routine. I have trained my body with a set running and workout pattern that in the end became a reward to myself.  My kids love routine, and I see what happens when we break it.

"I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO ME!"

I have talked with Pina and Tanya about meeting up to run along new paths or trails that they know of. I know Melissa and I have chatted about meeting up as well.  However, it all hit me TODAY,when my husband signed me up to run the Corporate Challenge on May 29th. The CC is 3.5 miles.  I'm not scared about it, but I also know that I can't just do things here and there and meet up when people are able to.  I'm going to have to do things on my own. And, I need a game plan!  NOW!  I need something written down, predetermined, so I can follow it as best as I can!  But how do I know what I need to do?

I did some reading and actually pulled up an 8-week 10K training schedule.  The first few weeks look pretty doable, and I'm excited to see where this could take me.  I modified it a little it and even put in exactly what I can do at the JCC to cross train.  I've added my Pilates and Body Pump classes to it, and gave myself 2 rest days like NoBo gave me.  Not only do I think it will put me in great shape for the Corporate Challenge, but it will make me feel pretty confident at the start of No Boundaries 2.0.

I go back and forth if I think about what I'm looking for or how I'm feeling. Am I excited to see what else I can accomplish? And these goals are what is pushing me... OR am I just so scared I'll go back to my old ways and loose the interest or ability to run that I'll do ANYTHING to avoid that.  I hear it happens, and I don't want it to happen to me!  It's like I made more than just a commitment to "learn how to run" at the start of February.  I made a commitment to make sure I keep up with something that I now I can do, and really am starting to love... well, at least really like!

So, with that being said, here goes the next SIX WEEKS.  Look out, I have a whole new schedule to follow!  This girl has her plan of attack, so let's see she can do this!

The Finish Line: Another Beginning

Before I left, I needed to take one last look at that finish line. The kids were ready to leave, my hands were full and family was waiting, but I just needed one last moment to "not forget" what today meant for me! Everything in the past 12 weeks was leading up to this beautiful sight!  As I took this pic, a flood of emotions, memories and excitement almost made me not want to leave. I felt like I had to say something... like "good bye...and thanks.... or hope to see you again soon".  I had dreams leading up to the race about what it would look like, what would it feel like....{outside of the recent nightmares about being late and forgetting my bib}, and I had to take it all in so I could remember everything! What moves me today?  The Finish Line.  Crossing it with so many other No Boundaries participants who were just like me, 12 weeks ago, made it feel like we could do anything.  We were that unified! The Finish Line made us realize how much could change, if you were willing to put in the work. Running beside these new friends, coaches, mentors and everyone else who had that same finish line as their goal was extremely powerful!  Moving!! Today's Finish Line is just the beginning.  Now that I know I can run and that I like it, I'm ready for more. More races this summer, more training, NEW GOALS. "I'll be back to see you, Finish Line."  And I promise to look at you at the end of that race too, so you can push me to set my next goal!

I'm ready

In 48 hours I will have completed my first 5K race, running the entire thing! I can't believe it! 12 weeks ago I'd laugh at you if you said this was possible. That I could actually do this!

This past week I went out with friends and we completed our homework.  I was able to preview the race route with my favorite mentor, Pina and new friend Tanya. We ended up turning down the wrong street and when all was said and done, we ran 3.4 miles. So crazy! That was a personal record for being the longest distance I've ran without stopping to date.

The sun was shining, and the end felt absolutely amazing. I'm glad I was able to preview the course so I wouldn't be so anxious the day of the race. Even though I am confident I can run the distance of a 5k, doing it on Wednesday with friends eased any worries. 

I really can't believe how far I've come in such a short time. I remember the day we previewed the race course.  It was the day of the St.Patty's day race.  We were walking longer than running. It doesn't seem that long ago but the amount of progress everyone in No Boundaries has made is just awesome! 

I'm so excited for Sunday and know that this will be something I'll always remember!!  I'm READY!